Monday, April 18, 2016


I'm back on the bandwagon, temping, opk-ing, EOD-ing...basically I dusted off my
TTC knowledge when we finished unpacking and said let's do this!

CD16: +OPK


Probably ovulate tomorrow, which is great bc our timing has been great this month!

I'm back on the bandwagon, temping, opk-ing, EOD-ing...basically I dusted off my
TTC knowledge when we finished unpacking and said let's do this!

CD16: +OPK
Probably ovulate tomorrow, which is great bc our timing has been great this month!

Friday, April 8, 2016

Thought Process of an Infertile

Reprodutive Endocrinologist: "BLAH BLAH IVF....just $$&&"
Infertile: "How much $$$" ("How hard can it be to sell organs on the black marker?? There has to be a self centered billionaire that needs a kidney?!")

Amazon: "WONDFO"
Infertile: "I bet all I need is $20 worth of OPK and HPTS" ("please let me be the magical creature that gets pregnant without IVF")

Infertile: "I feel: sick, tired, hungry etc..."
Infertile's Acquaintance: "O M GEE are you pregnant!?!"
Infertile: "I'm gonna stab you!"

Monday, June 1, 2015


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Thursday, April 30, 2015

30 is looming...

I turn 30 on May 11.

I am not looking forward to 30 AT ALL.

By 30 I wanted to be working on baby #2....not STILL trying for baby #1.

By 30 I wanted to own our own home....not STILL renting.

I wanted to go to Hawaii for my 30th birthday...

Instead, we are using every extra dollar to pay for Dr. appointments and medications.  No extra dollars to buy a house, no extra dollars to go on vacations, just none no extra dollars.

We have been trying to get pregnant for 4 years! FOUR Years! When we started trying when I was 26. It's not unreasonable to think that we will be trying for another 4- 5 more, that puts me at 35...

"Pregnancy after 35Are you considering pregnancy after 35? Understand the issues for older mothers — and know what it takes to have a healthy pregnancy. If you're older than 35 and hoping to get pregnant, you're in good company. Many women are delaying pregnancy well into their 30s and beyond — and delivering healthy babies. Taking special care can help give your baby the best start.Understand the risksThe biological clock is a fact of life, but there's nothing magical about age 35. It's simply an age at which various risks become more discussion worthy. For example:

It might take longer to get pregnant. You're born with a limited number of eggs. As you reach your mid- to late 30s, your eggs decrease in quantity and quality. An older woman's eggs also aren't fertilized as easily as a younger woman's eggs. If you're older than 35 and haven't been able to conceive for six months, consider asking your health care provider for advice.

  • You're more likely to have a multiple pregnancy. The chance of having twins increases with age. The use of assisted reproductive technologies — such as in vitro fertilization — also can play a role.
  • You're more likely to develop gestational diabetes. This type of diabetes, which occurs only during pregnancy, is more common as women get older. Tight control of blood sugar through diet and physical activity is essential. Sometimes medication is needed, too. Left untreated, gestational diabetes can cause a baby to grow significantly larger than average — which increases the risk of injuries during delivery.
  • You're more likely to develop high blood pressure during pregnancy. Research suggests that high blood pressure that develops during pregnancy is more common in older women. Your health care provider will carefully monitor your blood pressure and your baby's growth and development. You might need to take medication or deliver your baby before your due date to avoid complications.
  • You're more likely to have a low birth weight baby and a premature birth. Premature babies, especially those born earliest, often have complicated medical problems.
  • You might need a C-section. Older mothers have a higher risk of pregnancy-related complications that might lead to a C-section delivery, such as placenta previa — a condition in which the placenta blocks the cervix.
  • The risk of chromosome abnormalities is higher. Babies born to older mothers have a higher risk of certain chromosome problems, such as Down syndrome.
  • The risk of pregnancy loss is higher. The risk of pregnancy loss — by miscarriage and stillbirth — increases as you get older, perhaps due to pre-existing medical conditions or fetal chromosomal abnormalities. Ask your health care provider about monitoring your baby's well-being during the last weeks of pregnancy."  

So NO, I'm not excited about my birthday. I'm battling infertility, depression and time itself

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

I'm a testaholic

It starts with...I'll use a cheapie

It grows to....I think I see something

let me play with this!

yea I think I see something....
Maybe its just line eye...
Nope, I see something....
Could it be an indent? I bet it's an indent

I'm better take a FRER to make sure...

OH I see something!

yea...thats probably an indent too

It's too early...

Thursday, April 23, 2015

A dream is a wish your heart makes.....

I had always dreamed how I would tell Jaimy he was going to be a Daddy...

I have the perfect idea, the perfect onesie, and some perfect awesome friends that promised to help pull off the perfect surprise....

Infertility has ruined it....I have multiple ultrasounds, and Jaimy being the most perfect husband makes it to ALL of them, he knows where my cycle is, when I'll be testing, and ultimately it will be impossible to surprise him.

Yet knowing all of this I still want to try...I even gathered the pictures of the ideas and almost uploaded them.

My infertile heart still clings to the DREAM of MAYBE, maybe this month it will happen and I can time it to where I can surprise him.